Revisions for UTs at late nights. Less than 6hours of sleep daily.
Am i too nervous or what?
I did not complete my Marketing Test! There goes my 20marks(or more).
And i have just enough time for my Finance Banking Test yesterday. (though with partial done in one of the MCQ question. -.-)

Sucha long time i took UT already. The pervious time i took UT was months back in Year 2.
And seriously, the countdown at the side is SCARY! And my lappy hangs the moment the countdown timer reached at its 57th seconds. Means, my duration of test is 45mins, it hangs total of 45 times! -.-

Financial Accounting Test postponed to 17th June. (its a Wednesday)
16th June, Healthcare Test. Both collide before and after. How 'great'!

I'm sure to declare that, I can't catch up with Financial Accounting class anymore! *cries*

Enough of that, now, FYP.
Codes and codes and codes. I can even dream about it during my sleep!
mysql_query($sql) or die(mysql_error());
If.... else..
echo "..;"

And what the holly hell is Prepared Statement and AJAX!?!
2 weeks vacations starts today, means i will be facing the CODES more and more each day!

Side note: Quiz(II) in facebook is up! :D

BYEBYEBYE!

Initially i don't intend to blog. I'm seriously occupied with tonnes of work!
But well, if this still goes on, i will go crazy.
So like what Lorenzo told me before, rant everything in your blog!
And here i go!

Tuesday, 19th May. Marketing.
Seriously no motivation for the whole day. Didnt work much. So, i presume a D for that lesson.

Wednesday, 20th May. FYP day.
Meeting in the morning at 11am. The whole meeting was smooth and also the time terrors come!
Codings + programming + codings + more programming!
Stress stress stress!
Mugging for accounts that night.

Thursday, 21st May. Healthcare.
Changed team allocation and i still miss my previous team lorh!
Damn sleepy for the whole day but Mr Soon rocks can? He ended the lesson at 3pm. (which suppose to be 4.15pm)
Mug for accounts and accounts till late night.

Today, 22nd May. Financial Accounts. HELL DAY.
- Changed team allocation. Still not use to it.
- Today's problem : Perpetual/Periodic. FIFO/LIFO/Average weighted. !!
- Calculator SPOILT!
- Financial Accounts Understanding Test POSTPONE! (good/bad? i studied for it last 2 nights!)
(But thank god, cause my calculator was dead dead dead.)
- I got this irritating guy in my team call Jun Ming. I was simply hurt and pissed off by what he said. Saying wrong thing, doing haywire stuff at the wrong time. PISSED!
- FYP meeting canceled cause of my pain pain gastric + Yilin's MIA. -.-
- Wanted to look for some stuff at CWP with Maggie, but CWP was close, due to fire breakout.
- I just received a Disciplinary Warning from school for goodness sake!
- And i forget about my dinner which my mum cooked. Ate at 10plus just now. -.-

Okay ciao. My ulcer is damn freaking pain!
Perhaps i should blog by weekly basis for this time being. (:

Slept for holly 12 hours! Can see that i'm pretty tired over the weeks.

Financial Accounting yesterday and i was lost lost lost!
Totally lost. Somehow my Zai team were lost! Damn the theory part of accounting. Freaks us out. Its so chim-o-logy! So for powerpoint, the sot sot Brendon did all the slides on the theory part! Total of more than 10 slides i suppose? He crop crop copy copy paste paste all the principles and assumptions and apply to the problem statement! Zai anot?
So me, did the journal entries and trail balance with Vanessa, some sort taking my own little sweet time, stoning at the lappy and doing the Trail balance.
Presenatation time, and what? Many many mistakes were found in our journal entries! *Faints

Requested to leave class at 3pm.
Reason: I've something on.

Zhooom-ed out and headed to Woodlands station and tranined down to City Hall!
To meet that BESTIE of mine at 4pm. But i was late by weee-bit. :D

Made our way down to Kallangway 2A, KBox head office to get our April left-over salary and also return the unis.

And the whole thing took 45minutues! -.-
After everything has done, we wasted our time at that kuku place for more than 30 mins. All thanks to the rainy rainy weather, which we can't head to anyway.

After the rain subside, headed to Bugis for dinner + homework.
Dinner at Tong Seng at 6.45pm. (Nurul, you should know where)
And then NLB at 7.30pm to do our homework. [My RJ, his assignment]

9pm out of library and cam-whored a little~
(As promised to blog bestie picture here.)

Bus-ed back home and i went straight to sleep after reach home + bathe.
Okay lah, Bye!

Chilled out with Nurul last night at Clarke Quay.

But before that,
FYP in school at 11am.
Met Nurul Esplanade NLB at 3pm.
Left Esplanade by 195 to Clarke Quay at 7pm.
Got ourselves Long Island at 7-11, chilled by the River.
So nice, but we were half tipsy somehow? I suppose.
Bus-ed home by 174 at 10plus.
Reached home at 11 plus,
And zhooom-ed to bed straight after bathe.
[Seriously feel so so so tired and heavy head.]

I may be a good drinker, but may not. At least i know, i can't take much. Cause i realised i'm allergy to alcohol. My back was itchy all the way since this morning. Haik!

Woke up late this morning at 8am. [Class at 10am]
But reached class early somehow, cause my bus was early.
Healthcare today, love today's class, but didn't perform at my toppest form.
Partially is because i'm still in my haywire-mood in the morning. =\

Hectic period.
RJ, FYP, UTs and CE!
Faints!

Dear yahshi, you shouldn't have that thinking at this point of time.

Careless mushroom did not bring her wallet to school. So i loaned her some bucks! And we accompanied each almost throughout the day! -.-

Class at 10am and i reach interchange at 9am! That was seriously way to early. Met XiuHui, the mushroom friend since i have the time to waot. But but, we reached school at 9.15am. =\
Its Day4 lesson and our class is just opposite each other. So yah, breakfast + lunch + dinner together in school :D
School-ed and home-ed together too, thanks for being there mushroom!
*Conclusion : YahShi + XiuHui = XiuHui's metabolism rate high! (some inside joke)

Reached home at 8.30pm. Wasn't a nice one. Sigh!

Back to yesterday, i spent the day with him...

Cam-whored inside NEL train when on our way to Clarke Quay from Vivo.

HAPPY MUMMY'S DAY!
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And not forgetting HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIE!
[Don't act cute, cause you can't compete over me! Happy 18th!]


Dine-ed in at ICHIBAN Sushi just now, for Edwin's birthday + the $30 voucher!
Hope you enjoy your day yea bestie.
And my bff love wished my bestie a happy birthday too. Isn't Nurul Farhah cute?!

Okay lah. Restaurant City now. Ciao!

I'm blogging now cause i've nothing to do, at all.
3rd group is still in the midst of presenting now. So looooooonnng.


Me and team had just finished our presentation.
- Did so 'much' yet have to present the small small minor T-account. -.-

And i have to say, i have a super ZAI team!
ZAI = crazy, loud & efficient.
Especially that kuku Brendon. I don't know what's wrong with him! Superly sot today!
But still because its FRIDAY!
And he mentioned he came to this class to improve CHINESE! Muahahah!

Wear spec = eyesight jialat?
Sheat man! Thats what Brendon said! And i shall wear contact lens next week, if i remember.

Slept at 3am last night, to chiong the fyp. Hafta submit relevant documents to supevisor by today. Yea super last minute, cause i recieved the message from him just yesterday morning.

And i'm super seriously tired today, but my team is so 'high'! Whoohoos~
Time now 3.33pm. But its just the last team.

Alrightly Bye!

And yet, i still have the time to blog. That's ridiculous of me. Multi-tasking over fyp-ing and blogging and MSN-ing at the same time!

Feeling quite tired over this few days. Tired after a day of work. Fretting over this and that. School, Home, People. Headache seems to be a norm to me now. And every night before i turn in, chest will suddenly have this pumping pain, again. Which results that i must have my medicine to ease the pain. Kinda worry if this thing happens every night. Cause i merely left with 10 pills to survive over the pain! If i go back to the polyclinic now, sure they will refer me to the hospital. Which i don't want it to happen now.

I dare not tell my parents. Neither do i want to worry them nor stop doing what i want/suppose to do now.

But well, i hope things will turn out to be fine each day. (:

FYP still killing me! I'm stuck! I hate doing what we are doing now at this stage. I want to start on the programing part real soon! Argh!

I'm looking forward to weekend to rest my brain cell!

Oh! What a shitty day + happy day.

Marketing module today. I detest it. Of all modules i'm not enjoying this module at all. Counting down to 12 more lessons and byebye Marketing!

I got the black triangle sticker today!

Reached class at 8.50am. That was indeed early. But a disaster morning!
MY DEAR ACER ADAPTOR DEAD ON ME. Totally dead.
Was panicking how am i going to survive with a no-power-laptop throughout the day, plus its Marketing class! And guess what? I sms-ed 3 of my close friends at a go, which later i find it of no use doing it. -.-
Told faci about it, and she replied, "Why?". Oh no! How am i going to answer her when i myself also don't know why.
Well, manage to survive through somehow with classmate's battery/plug. But wasn't in a good mood.

And i was teamed with 4 guys! =\

Lunch break, to mushroom's class and ka-jiao her! Yes, purposely. Merely because i'm done with my work and my laptop was totally flat flat flat! I keeping repeating the same thing over and over again to mushroom.
"How? My adaptor how? It cost $117.70 for a new adaptor lehhh!"
I think she is somehow pissed off of what i said over and over again. Haha!

Back to 3rd meeting, personally think that i presented quite well on my slides compare to previous lessons. But well, not expecting any better grades this week cause wasn't performing well throughout the lesson.

Started to pack up when faci starts her 6P. Hafta chiong to IBP by 4.15pm! Thank god class ended abit earlier today at 3.30pm.

Guess what, while walking along E1, i realised I LOST MY EZLINK CARD! How goodness! Rummaged with my bags also don't have! Almost wanted to cry cause today is kinda SUAY! Wanted to go OSC to check if anyone picked up my Ezlink card and pass it to them, cause i remembered i'm still holding on to my Ezlink card when i'm with mushroom during lunch break.

And what? The security guard don't allow me to get in to OSC! He said i'm INTRUDER! Na-beh! Was in a rush of time and yet still have to deal him off. I told him, "I lost my ezlink card and i want to report to OSC, and my RP's sticker is with my Ezlink card, if my Ezlink card happen to be in there(OSC), i will proof to you later!". Well, the security guard let me in, redundantly!

THANKS TO THAT KIND HEART SOUL WHO PICKED UP MY EZLINK CARD AT SOUTH AGORA AND PLACE IT AT OCS!

Hailed a cab along the bus stop at 3.45pm. The driver's service was indeed superb! Despite of the jams, he manage to drop me at IBP at 4.10pm.

AND I GOT A NEW ADAPTOR FOR FREEEEE!
of course, my acer lappy's still under warranty.
Yes yes, everything was settled in just 5mins.

Got a miss call from ZhengHui and we planned to meet at Clementi at 4.45pm. Just to head down to KBox and take our pathetic tips. Shan't mentioned anything about the people that. Dampens my mood.

Decided to head home after which, as my heart pained suddenly.

Happier note, shall not to think so much afterall. Seriously hates the mood swings for the past few days, making myself more emo-shit. I shall live my life to the fullest, and i mean 100% fullest.

Woke up kinda late this morning cause i'm having insomnia last night, again.
Merely 3hours of sleeps. Sigh!
Left home at 8.25am, with a fulgy face.
8.30am; Reached bus stop. Took out my fone, replied besti. (but no reply from besti after that)
8.45am; Stoning at bus stop.
8.55am; Bus still haven't come. Was cursing and swearing. (class starts at 10am anyway)
9.00am; Bus came, like FINALLY. Cramped with people! (Piang!)
9.15am; Location still at Bt Panjang area, bus damn-ass slow.
9.30am; At last, at BKE. TRAFFIC JAM! First time in life 2 of the lanes was blocked due to 2 accidents ahead! Piang! (Sms-ing XiuHui, mood wasn't that good. Rained heavily.)
9.45am; Reached Woodlands interchange.
Voom-ed to queue for 902 but the queue was damn longgggggg!
9.48am; 169 came, queued for it, thank god i manage to get up the bus.
9.53am; Reached school. Was delayed abit by the kuku temperature thingy at the entrance. Piang!
And i took lift to 7th floor. It stopped at every level! -.-!!
Chiong-ed to class and it was 9.59am! I was marked as Present!


Alrightly, Finance Banking lesson today. Still alright. Just that emo-ing, having serious mood swings and monday blues throughout the day. Time past damn fast and kinda hectic. Couldn't do what it was planned. Haix!

Ate economical rice with XiuHui during study period 1. Pretty early to have a rice-meal. Appetite wasn't that good but manage to finish all up. Back to class, rotted, stoned, doing work. Was shivering suddenly and feeling so weak. Sigh!

Class ended, like so fast?

Headed to JE library alone after school. Yea, alone, for some peace. Penny of thoughts which even saddens me more. Well, i'm just that negative this few days. Sigh. Just don't provoke me.

I miss my 5A3 peeeeepo!

Note: You may think that i'm out of mind in this post. But i'm not going to care what others think about me in this post.

For once, i hope things could just stop and let me move on. I know its hard to let go when situation is getting from bad to worst. I could even find things to blame on but i know, of all, it's still my fault. For the start i shouldn't have made that decision of mine, perhaps another decision would lead me to elsewhere. My big fault of being into this situation right now. Contradicting the impossible to become possible, but still its impossible, never will it be possible, neither do i want it to be possible!

What's wrong with me?! Doing the wrong thing at the wrong time? Or just practically this is my fate? One after another, repeating over and over again. I'm sick and tired of it, seriously. Yea, this is parts and parcel of my life, but i detest it.
Since don't know when, i keep doubting myself, doubting every single decision i made. Making me feel tensed and pissed off. I feel so messed up, nothing seems to be 100% perfectly done.

Oh no! That's not me. I felt that i've changed. I want back what i use to be in the past. But i forget what i used to be. I just hate myself for now, period.

I have no idea who to approach to. Side of me need a listening ear. But another side of me, feel so redundant to approach to a best/close friend. I have this thinking that i'm not any big shot, neither do i need attention from others, neither do i want to disturb anyone of you.

I know, best/close friends of mine whom is reading this now will ask, "Hey, this is what friends are for, just approach to me if you need me." But the fact is, even i, myself have no idea how to approach to you, even if i approached, i have no idea what to say cause i don't know what actually happen to me/on me.

Yes, i feel damn ass xin ku.
I detest what i am right now.

I SHALL HAVE MY LONG WEEKEND WITH A BIG FAT REST.

Whoots! All school stuffs aside. (cause i've almost done all! teeheehee!)

Studying outside in library for the past one week after school has been a conducive one for me. Refrain from the distracting environment at home nor the pitching sounds around my house.
Not forgetting the tired-yet-still-come-and-accompany-me de bestie! If not i might be nua-ing at a corner, even emo-ing. *laughs*

Sheat! Pms pms pms! I'm feeling damn uneasy now! Not contented nor happy with everything and anything, up and down, left and right. &@!$*&$*~

I think i'm seriously lack of rest and lack of vitamins and relevant nutrients needed in the body, which is true. Having less than 2 junk-meals daily makes me to nowhere. Lethargic,restless, tired, moodswing can be found on me every single minute. Seriously out-break of pimples too! Piang!

No mood to blog now. Zero blogging cell in me.
G'nites and happy 1st May!