I've neglected my blog for the whole 1 week. That isn't my style.

Just within a week many things had happen. Mainly at outlet. Somehow somewhat it happen just too sudden. I tried to stay firm, but at the same time, i'm afraid too. All along i thought i could handle difficulties well, control my emotion well. But not at all time, i'm able to do that.

Is that really me?

Last night was horrendous. I shan't mention to scare anyone of the readers here. But well, I'm glad you are fine now. Just some words for you, since i know you will be reading this: "Hang on there my friend, i believe you can overcome it. Just remember i will be here for you, at least just a phone away. (:"

I'm hungry and tired now. -.-

Sometimes, my life can be like a ride in roller coaster - Ups and downs.
Sometimes, my life can freak me out with what surrounds me.
Sometimes, i have no idea i have made a right decision for trusting someone.
Sometimes, i miss you, i think of you but sometimes i don't.

I had a bad dream last night. I dreamt of losing all my friends in just a night. Dreamt of myself walking in a dark dark alley all by myself. It horrifies me. And i woke up, sobbing.

Friends.. What does it means?
What makes someone a friend?
What's the role of being a friend?

I can lend you my shoulder for your tears, lend you my ears as a listening ear, lend you my time for your accompany, lend you anything which you want.

But does anyone of you know what i want? Thinking back, all i need is care and concern, a friend whom is there for me, a friend whom i can rely on. But none of them fulfill what i hope for.

I'm not angry or sad. I just don't want to be lonely. I don't want the dream to come true.

Do friends expire? Cause i don't want to lose anyone of you. Especially those i regards your as good friends.

Sigh.

Actually wanted to fret out what has happened few hours back when working just now. But i guess no point to illustrate the whole event. Well, sincerely apologies to all whom is affected my me. Especially Edwin, i know you don't feel good either. Seriously sorry if i had pissed you off. But well, i suppose we have talked it out already yea?
We are still good friends afterall. (:

On the other hand...

FYP and class allocation is out.

Kinda contented with the FYP's proposal. But where should i start first?

Me and team's FYP proposal: Music Fan Website.

Next, class allocation.. It was a nightmare!
(checked from yandao.com)

Day 2 - Healthcare Applications 1 (C367) @ W67J-C
Day 4 - Financial and Banking Applications I (C363) @ W67A-C
Day 1 - Marketing (B216) @ E56N-B
Day 3 - Financial Accounting (B215) @ E56A-B

I'm happy with the modules, cause it was all my desire one's.. BUT!

Firstly, i'm totally freak out when i know that all my modules are of different classes, different timings!
- Means every week i have to go to 4 different classes at 2-alternate timings. And i will have 4 different batches of classmates! -.-

And! Every different classes at least will have 2 bitches i don't like. I suppose Valerie should know who am i saying cause i just left her an offline message.

Well, i think i should just accept the fact.
Sleeping soon.

2 consecutive off days and one of it just passed by.

Spent my Sunday with family dining in at Sakae Sushi then to Clementi for a KBox Session. Sounds lame that i went to my own workplace and sing. But well, i'm waived from any charges. Which means its FOC for me. Sang from 7plus to 3am. Dad, Mum and Bro went back at around 11plus due to that bro have to go back to school the next day, which is today. So me and sis sang like nobody cares. And towards the end, our voice goes haywire! I can feel the soreness in my throat now. After which, cabbed home with less than 10bucks.

Anyway, Thanks Edwin for your jacket. If not i think i will freeze to death.
P/s; i shall not hide your identity anymore.

I have no idea how my next hour gonna be despite that its my mum's birthday. No plans at all because of the kuku SOP. Darn it.

Counting down to my last day of work is the happiest thing currently, leaving with just less than 10days! Though i have done with my resignation letter, but i still have amendments to do! Ahh!

Shall stop here.

And, i broke down yesterday at workplace, twice.
Somehow somewhat things just don't go smooth or as expected. Argh! Damn it!
Thanks to whoever who console me, which, i had forgotten who. =\

But well, at least, its over already. Today is another day and at least i'm slightly a little happier.

Off to work soon.

I have been sleeping longer than usual!
Work from 7pm to 3am. Slept from 6am to latest 3am. Online-ed for merely 2 hours. -.-
But still, i'm feeling lethargic after the long sleep.

Got my cheque on the 6th midnight! No excitement at all perhaps i roughly know how much i'm getting? So well, gotten the hard cash from UOB at Jurong Pt with the rest of the working mates on the 6th afternoon. (Lack of sleep)
After which, headed to NewYork NewYork for a meal.


Blah blah blah.. Headed and reached outlet before 5pm after that.

Darn it! I have no blogging cells now. So, till my next post.

I opened my cupboard. Piles and piles of junks stacking one after another. Papers, money, sweets, cables etc. And now i looked beside my laptop. One lump of stuffs cramped together - wallet, hard disk, pen, handphone, keys, cables and letters.

Oh man! Since when my table are in a mess?!

Oh well, last night wedding dinner was okay. I bought y camera WITHOUT the memory card!
(laugh as loud as you want)
So, no pictures was taken!

Basically attended the dinner for the sake of eating the food there. Was seated with Ah-Yi's family. Jia Sy and i were seated side by side. We chatted many things and everything under the sun! Ranging from marriage to boyfriend to my workplace to friends to many many things! Nice catching up! :D

And there is this cute little boy running around! The last time i saw him was in Oct'07! He has grown up!


Was checking my school's webmail just now and was informed by the new schedule/time table when school start. Year 3 falls in Group C module. Which most probably my class will start at 10am and ends and 4.15pm. Whoots, shorter period but hectic work i suppose?

Got to prepare for work later. 7pm to 3am. Whoots!

OFF DAY today!
Sunday off, Monday MC, yesterday work, and today OFF again.
I know it's kinda kuku-fied.

So yesterday reached workplace at 6pm, together with a guy. Yeap, we had dinner before that cause i had wanted to treat him a meal since don't know when. So we settle ourselves at Subway for dinner. Met at 5pm, finish dinner by 6pm which cause a reason why we reached workplace so early.
(Name not mention to protect his identity.)

Yup! 4 letters arrived at my doorstep today! 1 was a big pink registered parcel which arrived at my doorstep this morning when i was sleeping. Thank god, mum helped to acknowledge it. If not i have to retrieve it from the Post Office or re-schedule another mailing date. It was some accessories i bought from a online shop, partially was for me and some was for friend's birthday.
Other 3 letters was normal postage at my mailbox. 2 of it was from Fairprice, regards to my Fairprice Plus Debit card (OCBC ATM/VISA card). Another parcel was some stuff bought from a blogshop.

Damn! I'm so into blogshopping nowadays!

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNLI!
I know you won't be reading this. -.-

Oh yah! I've got Mastercard and Visa Card already! So what's next? Diners Club? American Express?

Have to go now! Gonna attend a wedding dinner with family later. My mum's cousin's daughter's wedding. At Swissotel Merchant Court Sinagpore. Near Clarke Quay Station. Hope is a gorgeous one! Whoots!

Yesterday was my off day. And i was woken up by my mum at 12pm. which means i slept less than 6hours lorh! Went to Chinatown with them and did a little shopping. Was tired throughout. Sigh. Slept at 10pm last night.

And i woke up at 11am today. 13 hours of big fat sleep was awesome.

Well, went to polyclinic to see doctor. Cause i'm experiencing some chest pain since last year.
And i'm on ONE MONTH MEDICATION!
I forgotten what the doctor said. I remembered him saying what gastric and lungs infection. -.-
He said if the pain still occurs after i finish my medication, i must go back polyclinic immediately and they will refer me to a hospital!
And he initiate me a MC for today.
Might be going out later at night, maybe not.


Some strange feeling inside me. Grrrr. I don't know why.

Side Note: Trimmed my hair. short and ugly~